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Hate is not the word

Pain is not the choice
Revenge is never the answer

Letting go takes time
Be patient,
Even if it takes forever

Some way, you will forget him
Somehow,with patience,
It will come...

Remember the story that I gave you with my past blog post which states my experience with my first love? I shared to you this poem written by Louise Gabato which is taken from the CIC's School paper. It really inspired me because all the time, I never realized that he's very far away. He is no longer with me but why is he still bothering my mind? I really cannot understand my feelings.

My friends told me to forget him because he seems to fell happy with his new environment and his new girlfriend. So I think and think until I finally realized that my friends are true. I heard that he is enjoying his life with his new friends and his girlfriend and you know what? She is better than me. As what the poem says, Hate is not the word. Who am I to hate him? He's not mine and I'm not his so what is the big deal?

Pain is not the choice. I can hardly believe this because I fell pain but not too much. It is painful because to think, I still love him eventhough we are far away from each other. But by now, I already had relieved the pain I am feeling inside.

Revenge is never the answer. Fighting back never comes to my mind. Why would I fight him? " Do I have a good reason to be angry?" I asked myself then.

Letting go takes time. This is really true. Letting go of a person takes a lot of time for thinking, a lot of time to realize and a lot of time to accept. You have to accept it with all your heart.

Be patient. Letting go needs patience. If you find a hard time letting go, you will find a hard time on reducing your temper but even it takes forever, just be calm at all times because this refreshens your mind.

Some way, I will forget him. Now I'm starting toget over and I'm also starting my new life again with my new friends, my new inspiration. If there are times that all I can do is to laugh, I forget him just for a while but he always comes into my mind.

Somehow, with patience, it will come. Maybe tomorrow, maybe the next day, maybe the next week, maybe the next year or maybe just forever. I know it takes a lifetime to heal the wound but healing the wound would not take a lifetime. If he wishes that I'll burn his memories inside my heart, I would not because it is kept and locked in that place forever. But for now, nobody can replace him until the time comes that somebody would find the key and open it once again.

Hope that somehow I enlightened your minds and inspired you with these thoughts and you might remember these because you may realize that it is never too late. Good Day!

Wanted: A Sitter

I experienced to be a baby sitter for two days because my aunt wanted me to look after her son while she is on a badminton tournament held in Cagayan. She told me that I'll do the job in exchange for a small sallary but it can help .I can't resist it because I also need money that time so I immediately took the job.

When you decide to become a baby-sitter you are taking on a very serious job. But it is also a kind of job that can be a great deal for fun. When it comes to the fun side of the job you will quickly learn that on your own. Taking care of young children is a natural job for teenagers like me because I observed that most children like being with young people, teenagers often have a real knack for plying with them and baby sitting is a good way to earn money.

The most important part of the job is SAFETY. The children you take care for must be kept safe and away from harm so I asked assistance from my dear mom. She told me some suggestions. As a sitter, your a pretty important person in the life of the child. He may watch you closely, and copy from you so be sure you are setting a good example.

Of course, you know very well that you don't actually become a parent when you take on a sitter's job. You can't punish a child as some parents might. I really put these things on my mind because honestly, I'm not as patient as Cheng. Well, you don't know her by the way so let's go back. Oh! Ah, there are limits to this job. It may be up to you to let the parents know about your limitations so I said that I can't be a nurse for my aunt's child but I'll try my best to keep him away from harm. Every job has really its problems.

For your own sake it's important to let your own parents know exactly where you will be when you take on a sitting job. In my case, my aunt asked my parents first before they let my knew. Remember: You should not take a sitting job when you are sick. Whether or not you have other teenagers with you, one thing you have to be very clear about : YOUR MAIN JOB IS TO WATCH THE CHILD.

In order to make the child happy, make use of your own brand of know-how. If you have special talents, show it to them. If your a born storyteller, or maybe you can pick out a time on the guitar. Do you know how to fold a newspaper into hats or rowboats? It may not be a great deal to you, but the children might be interested about it.

But the most important is you have to love your job. Love the child as your own. Treat them as a person but not as an animal. As soon as you already feel this, you can do your job as planned. Thank you and Good Day!

A Miracle brought by God

A part of me once swam to a river full of mysteries to look for its missing piece, the missing piece that completes an organism. After they found each other in a vast place, they lived as one and developed a perfect organism- a product of love and passion. After which I have developed inside my first home, I left happily to a place full of love and prosperity-a place of freedom and a place where you can find peace. I then took my first breath quietly and started to join the others in their quest for Life- a far and a cold place.

I’m happy to say that I grew with the best mom and dad in the whole wide world who took care of me through richer or for poorer. After many years of eating nutritious food, sleeping in a soft bed and being loved all throughout, I finally reached the stage wherein I’m contented for what I have. I accepted with all my heart these characteristics: a soft and slender hair, my blurred eye vision, my long-legs, my knowledge and most especially my faith in our creator. I love myself. When I underwent my puberty stage, I noticed some changes in my life. I didn’t expect that such things would happen. The broadening of my shoulders, the changing of my voice, my menstrual flow every other month and like others, when the time came that I started to admire certain people.

Love is found everywhere, it is given by anyone and it occurs anytime. Now that I am continuously growing to be a matured individual, I’m still finding my true self my origin, my foundation. And now that I am starting to explore the beauty of life, as a student and as a human being, I then realized that everything goes somewhere, everything is connected to everything else and everything has its price, a purpose. The purpose of giving birth is to give opportunity for an organism to evolve, to live life to the fullest and face their bright future under God’s hands. God know all and I’m trying to know the purpose of living with him. I’ll give you this prologue taken from the book of Bodie and Brock Theone which is the Second Touch. May this inspire you? Find out.

Adonai spoke to her softly as He formed her.

I AM sending you.

Adonai loved her, created her as a reflection of His great love. He swam beside her as she emerged from the warmth of the womb into a cold, far country called Life.

She hesitated. Tried to turn back.

He compelled her to go on. Breathe! Don’t be afraid! You are sent by Me beyond what you imagine are the boundaries of your world.

Have trust in God. God know what you are doing and if you are in danger, he’ll find a way to keep you safe. Just do your job here on earth. Take care of God’s creations because by doing this, you are likely to respect God to the fullest. Just pray that you’ll have a long life so that you can enjoy the beauty of life. Good Day!

Filipinos Around the World!

People love to watch the series of "Pinoy Big Brother" because certain pinoys from alll over the world would love to be part of the said program. To reach their dreams to be one of the housemates, they must sacrifice a lot. Family, lovelife and most especially their studies. I'm pertaining to Dionne who's a cebuana/UPian who dropped all her subjects just to join the reality show. It is really a big sacrifice because to think, she is going to graduate this March but she chose to give up on her studies for the sake of her ambition.

You have to think it many times because your future depends on your decision. It is her choice so, it is also her responsibilities. I hope that her decision is good. Choosing her dream than her future, her bright future. I'll continue to pray that she would win because Cebuanos would really be proud of her and so do UPians that keep on voting her.

Let's go to Wendy. Her story is as dramatic as a telenovela in the television. When she was still young, they are very rich. Her parents can afford to buy all the things she wants and she needs. But a disaster came. Years later, the whole family experianced bankcruptcy. All their money just disappeared in action. That's really a big disaster, isn't it? Few months later, her father died. That is a total disaster for them. So, she dicided to stop studying and moved forward to modelling. After two years of her career as a model, she decided to continue on studying until she graduates. Now, she enters the world of KUYA hoping that she will reach her dreams by the foundation given by the said reality show.

Let's go to Robert. He's a Filipino living in Milan. Actually, her sister married a guy from Milan so she decided to bring her mother and so do Robert to Milan. Now, that her sister moved to another house, leaving Robert and her mother. Now, Robert serves as the breadwinner so he tried to look for his future here in the Philippines inside the Big Brother's House. He tried to do his best in every task so that he could win. He is very dedicated to win for his mother. Filipinos are like that. They are very loving persons. Not like people in other countries who leaves the aged to the Home for the Aged.

All of us really have to sacrifice for the sake of our loved ones. We even give our life in case of danger. In the case of these people who sacrificed a lot in order to attain a good life, may their decision is for the good. And for us filipinos, let's try to be wise and keep on dreaming till we reach the star. I'm very inspired with these people because eventhough they belong to broken families or the low-class in the society, they don't easily lose hope. They are hoping that they could win in order to be famous and when that time comes, they can give all their families' needs. Good Day!

Teaching is Difficult

The school is our second home and the teachers are our second mother/father. These teachers act as our parents and in the same time, our guide to our dreams. Being a teacher in a day is very exhausting, as what I have experienced this KNOW YOUR SCHOOL Day. What more if we teach for decades, it's really a big challenge.

In a Know You School Day, we have to pay tribute to our beloved teachers by learning to experience on hoe to be a teacher, it requires a lot of time, a lot of effort and a lot of patience. The first thing to do is you have to study the different lessons that you have to teach. You have to understand it in order to share it with the students. In connection, it also requires a lot of alertness and enthusiasm in order for the students to understand it easily. You must combine your knowledge and sense of humor but not all the time. This can help the students to learn easily the topics discussed.

You cannot expect that everybody can understand it right away so you have to be ready with your examples and possible applications where you can apply what you have learned. Another is, you have to go beyond the box. You must expect that students sometimes ask questions which are beyond the topics discussed. This requires a lot of time. You must be patient because patience is a virtue. Patience lessens the pressure in you.

Another is, you must also be approachable. There are times that no matter how the students try to understand, still they cannot. So you must be ready for what they are up to you. Think of all the possibilities. You must also manage your time wisely. You must also encourage the students to study hard so that they can reach their dreams to become successful ones.

Also, you msut show equality and no favoritism because this is a very common issue against teachers. You must also love your students as you love your job. You must do your best so that the things you learned from your college days and the money you spent in order to be a teacher would be worth.

To be a teacher is to be a hero to everybody. A hero who makes a difference. A hero who made things possible and a hero who thought of others than himself/herself. They say that teachers serve as the foundation of the future of a person. They start to introduce us in a very cold and far place called life. They tell us the ways to a brighter future and they also serve as our guardians.

I am very happy to experience the difficulties of being a teacher but those difficulties are worth. In every success, there are obstacles that one has to overcome. So Ma'am/Sir, continue on inspiring students, loving people and teaching us the importance of education. You are our heroes! May God give you long life so that you can build more futures. Good Day!

What a U.P student is NOT

Everytime I pass through a certain area where people know that UPians are intelligent and UP gives a good quality education, some actually say,"Woah! She studies in UP but is she really intelligent?" The last question bothers me. I'm forced to say,"Are all UPians really intelligent?" Most UPians are brilliant but not all. The good things in UP are the school, the teachers, the quality of education and most likely the students. You can say all the good things about UP but what are some exceptions?

Some say that we are what they call as "nerds" but we are totally not. Some say that all of us are good in speaking in english but we are just reaching the average level. And they say that all of us are all-knowing but are we really that brilliant? The key is on the teachers. And most likely, people say that UPians excel in different fields but not all of us become professionals in the society. We are not born to excel but it's beacause of our perseverance. Some don't have this certain perseverance in their vocabulary.

People say that we are academic-minded but the truth is, we also are sports-minded. Actually, we have these certain time of the year wherein a sportsfest is held. Other than the High School Intramurals, we also have the Science Olympics which involves Science. We, the UPians, has this part of the mind set for academics and a part set for the extra-curricular activities. Often, we also play Pinoy games like patentero, piko, etc. if we have time.

They say that UPians are silent type of people but all I can say is, WE ARE NOT! We know how to talk with each other bacause no matter what, friendship really blooms all over the campus. Another is, we have this trait of companionship wherein love teams and a group of friends ( barkadas ) are built. We are humans. We have emotions like ordinary peole because we are one of them. But we are special in a way that some people are not. We are part of a society. We are special because we receive a good quality of education even if we are one of the low-class people in the society.

But the most intriguing are UPians are said to find trouble when it comes to politics and other issues in the government. As what Mdm. Logarta has said, "This is a democratic country." We are free to give our own opinions. UPians don't find trouble but we find justice. Think of what will happen if people don't say their feelings on a worsening country. The government needs the people- thier suggestions and shouts in order to attain a peaceful country.

"Don't judge a book by its cover." As what have Ms. Melanie Marquez said, "Don't judge me, I'm not a book." I agree to this. UPians are not subject to be talked about in the society. We are not famous actors but only , we stand for our rights so they have to give it to us. Don't expect to much from us because we are just human beings. Good Day!

Some Difficulties in Making a Blog Project

"What things do we have to do for tomorrow?" I always say this every afternoon. I'm very busy everytime there are assignments, quizzes and projects. Almost everyday, life here in U.P is very tiring and here's this blog project requiring 3-5 posts a week. Oh My God! "What shall I do?"

In every success, there are difficulties behind it. For this blog project, you have to manage your time wisely. Honestly, I'm a deadline fanatic. I mean that I love deadlines because I do my projects the day before or on the exact deadline period. Some people are like that. Now, only a few days to go before the deadline but I have to work on 35 more so I have to hurry up. Now I realize that I am wrong. If only I started early, I must have finished early. Aside from being busy, I'm really a lazy person. You can't blame me because it's me. Well, being lazy is not a sin but being lazy is wasting your oppurtunity to do things in advance. Like this one. I have a free time every 3:00-3:30 PM, and during this period of time, I'm talking with my friends. But I tried to think of my blog project. With that 30-minute break, I must have wrote 2 drafts for the said project.

Let's go to money matters. We all know that we are experiencing crisis within this year so we have to save our resources (money). My limitation is 2 hours in the cafe every week because we have no computer at home. Another problem is my typing skills. I type words slowly so I think I can't type 2,500 words in 2 hours. This is also connected to time management. If only I spent my internet hours on my project than checking on my account in friendster.

Another is being patient. You first have to accept the truth that patience is a virtue. If you are not patient, you can't do things with too much pressure so you have to have this initiative to do things patiently.

I'll give these comments and take these as a student in an extraordinary school but not as a critique. 5 posts are too much! This project is not only my commitment but I also have other responsibilities in other subjects. But I must do this because this is the only way that I can receive a good grade. Am I right?

I have realized all my faults. I have learned from this experience. All I can say is, know how to manage your time beacuse time is gold. Be willing to give all you can. Be industrious. And the two important things- be thrifty and be patient. Know your limitations but try to see if your worthy with those limitations. Feel free to ask yourself,"Can I make a difference out of patience, industry and love? "

Of course, Loving what you do is very helpful. It is better to love what you do than to do what you love. Live life! Good Day.