to my Life

"It is wednesday again!" I am so excited knowing that I will see the boy or will I say the man of my dreams today. I'm seated beside a window where I can peep to see him.

It was 11:00 in the morning and we are having a class. When I looked outside the window, I saw him sitting on a rock beside the court. Our teacher then told us to answer some exercises found in the book. I carefully answered it on a sheet of paper and finished it rapidly. I heard that he is playing my favorite sport-volleyball. So I turned my head and directed my eyes unto him. I stared at him seriously knowing that he does not know I'm around. Suddenly, he glanced at me. I felt like he is thinking that I like him so I stopped.

After what have happened, I promised to myself not to stare at him for a long time but I can't promise that I'll keep my eays off him.

This afternoon, I went to an internet cafe to do my project in computer. After a few minutes of typing, I took a rest for a while and looked around. I saw him! Now I know that he is fond of going to internet cafes just play D.O.T.A. I know, he's serious about it. Besides, I don't know how to play that kind of game so I continued on doing my project. After I'm done, I visited my friendster account to see if there are friend requests. Well, I do that often. I searched for his name and invited him to be one of my friends.

But I was shocked. I read some of his testimonials and I found out that he already has a girlfriend and they are recently taking the same course. "Ouch!" Then I thought of what really my feelings are.

Maybe I'm just idolizing him or admiring him but not liking him. But why is that everytime I see him, my heart beats as fast as raindrops falling from the sky. Everytime I hear his voice, my ears feel comfortable listening to him and everytime I see him play my favorite sport, my body pushes me to join him.

By the way, speaking of volleyball! Maybe I'm just seeing my past in him.

When I was in grade school (grade 6 to be specific), I have a crush that's really like him. They both have beautiful eyes, red lips, tall and most especially, knows and loves to play volleyball. Alexander makes me feel comfortable everytime I'm with him. And everytime I see him during practices, I feel like I love playing with him. Same as my feelings for _ _ _ _. I forgot to say, that we played volleyball together once. But I'm wondering of who among them made me feel so right?

Well, I think only I can answer my own questions when the right time comes. But for now, I'm still hoping and waiting for the right guy. But still, I will keep on finding my true emotions. Good Day!

The Sacrifice...

Have you ever tried to sacrifice for the sake of your loved one?

Being the eldest doesn't mean that you have to expect special attention from your parents. Instead, you have to look up on your responsibilities in the family. The eldest should serve as a model to his/her brothers and sisters.

This morning, I woke up at 6:30 in the morning. I took a bath, I ate a heavy meal and left the house at 7:00 a.m. My schoolmates and I went to Hipodromo Elementary School to do our duties as volunteers. When we were to ride a jeepney going home, I received a text message coming from my mom. My heart suddenly ached. It stated that my brother was immediately sent to the hospital. I hurriedly went to our house to check if it is well secured before I go to the hospital. Then, I was informed that my brother has Bronchopneumonia-a lung disease. The doctor said that his lungs were filled with water and phlegm that's why he felt his back very painful.She said that leaving his back wet after he plays was the cause.

Suddenly, I remembered that I have to meet with my classmate because we have to make our project but I cancelled my appointment with her. I sent her a message stating, "I'm sorry. I can't come with you to do our project. Hope you'll understand." Isn't this a big sacrifice for a student like me? Yes, this is. To think, I have to accomplish all my projects to have a good grade to make my parents proud. But what is more important, a grade which helps you to reach your dreams or the life of a little boy who is hoping to be a doctor someday?

Some say that you have to think about others first before you prioritize yourself. This is one of the sacrifices one has to understand. You have to alot some of your time to situations like the one I shared a while ago.

Thank God! We finished our project and submitted it on time. God is good. If I was able to think about myself before others, I may pass the project on time but I may let time pass by without helping my brother.

My parents are thankful that they have a daughter like me. Honestly, I'm proud of myself because eventhough I'm too young to hold responsibilities, I made it!
I'll give you this Prologue taken from the book of Bodie and Brock Theone which is connected to my experience.

Losing someone or something often carries pain beyond measure. But it can also develop within us a heart of empathy for others if we allow God to use our pain for benefit, rather than becoming bitter and turning against Him.

There's an old adage:" You have to lose what's really important to find out what really matters."

Well, all I have to say is, thank you for reading my blog and I hope that you appreciated my effort to share to you my experiences. Good Day!!!